The Power of Creativity

This drawing was done by me years before RA/MC memories surfaced in my conscious mind. – Sparrow

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“You use creativity and the arts to be a mirror, oftentimes for what needs to be healed in the human psyche, what the culture of the time is struggling with. You put that mirror up so that you can see it, so that you as a society can heal.

Unfortunately, with the creative arts there has been a suppressive energy around it for thousands of years and the reason for that is that when you are creative you think outside the box. And if you’ve got beings who want to stay in power and who want to be in control of reality, then you want everyone thinking in the box, thinking in small ways. And so anything that had to do with the creative arts was either suppressed or there was hardship attached to it ………….

But now here you are with the introduction of the internet. There is so much more data, there is so much that is happening in terms of the internet and the creativity, the way that you all express yourselves and bring that creativity to the world ……….. There are so many ways for you to express that creativity and to share it globally that did not exist 25 years ago.”

-Quote from the 9th Dimensional Pleiadian Collective in their talk “Creative Flow” from the Galactic Light Code (July 2024), channeled by Wendy Kennedy.

https://higherfrequencies.net/

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The mind control scientists and sex traffickers who abused me as a child did everything they could to shut down my creativity. Expressing my truth was punished with pain, cruelty, and threats of death. I saw other children being hurt and killed because “they told” or “didn’t obey”.

I believe my abusers feared creativity because they knew that if the children they abused were creatively expressing themselves, the truth of what the abusers had done would come out.

In my teens, twenties and into my thirties I had a brutal inner critic and deep feelings of depression, worthlessness, and undeservedness. My creativity was almost completely shut down. I loved art and was very attracted to artists and creative events, but I always felt like a spectator, like a child with it’s face pressed up to the window outside a beautiful toy store, unable to go in to play and explore.

Desperately wanting to change my life for the better, I started looking for answers to my questions. I found books and guided meditations that helped me. Later I found a therapist who told me she felt I had to attend 12 Step meetings if I wanted to heal. She said I was isolating and that going to meetings and hearing others share their truth would help me. Luckily for me, I was desperate enough to take her advice, even though the idea of being around others in this way terrified me. I started attending 12 Step meetings such as Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families (ACOA) and Codependents Anonymous (CODA). I very quickly fell in love with the honesty, vulnerability, empathy, respect, love and humor I found there.

Over time, I learned to be more loving to myself and others. I began journaling and was growing stronger in being able to speak openly and honestly about my thoughts and feelings. All my memories of being sexually abused and mind controlled were still deeply repressed.

One day I visited a local bookstore I loved. Rather than heading straight for the magazine section like I usually did, to my surprise, I found myself wandering around the tables displaying books. Suddenly I stopped, looked down, and found myself staring at the colorful cover of a book entitled “Life, Paint, and Passion: Reclaiming the Magic of Spontaneous Expression” by Michele Cassou and Stewart Cubley.

I was immediately attracted to it’s title and vibrant cover. When I opened the book and began to read, I was quickly drawn into the simple, playful, and unlimited adventure it described creativity could be. I loved the ideas it shared that drawing or painting was something I could begin now – that I didn’t need a special gift or years of classes and training. Intrigued, I bought the book and began reading it in earnest. Soon I started painting (!) , playing with and incorporating the ideas I was gathering from the book.

Painting and drawing from my intuition and for process rather than product as Life, Paint, and Passion taught, was very liberating for me. “This is only for me.” I would tell myself over and over and over. It gave me the freedom to experiment and explore. I also noticed that a wonderful feeling of peace and joy came over me as I painted or drew. I loved it! There were times my inner critic would rear it’s ugly head, but I found ways to quiet it or somehow trick myself into continuing. I was hungry for the feelings of freedom, peace, and joy creativity gave me.

Early into my artistic adventures, swastikas began making an appearance in my drawings and paintings. This disturbed me! I knew I was completely against everything Hitler and the Third Reich stood for. I was also a young mother, eager to befriend other moms and families in the neighborhood. Drawing swastikas didn’t fit in to what I imagined a “good” mom would do! I was afraid others would judge me harshly if they saw my work and my daughter and I would be ostracized. I suppressed the urge to draw or paint swastikas for awhile and found that the creative flow I had come to love so much completely dried up and stopped.

I quickly learned that I had to honor whatever images or feelings arose within me and then express them if I wanted the flow of creativity to continue. I rationalized that the swastikas symbolized a darkness that still existed on the planet and that was why I wanted to draw or paint them.* Later I told this to other people who asked about the swastikas in my work. (Fortunately for me, my friends and neighbors turned out to be a lot more open minded and intelligent than I gave them credit for!)

I know now that by presenting me with swastikas my subconscious mind was beginning to give me clues about the horrific abuse I endured in my childhood. When I was small I had to completely suppress any memories of this abuse in order to function and survive. There was no one around me who was able to hear my truth and help me escape what was happening. A therapist later told me that the human psyche is very protective of itself. It will repress memories to protect a child and will not release information unless it knows the person is ready to handle it. I believe my subconscious mind knew that, as an adult, I now had the strength and support I needed to begin remembering, processing, and healing from the abuse I experienced as a child.

And so began a journey with creativity in which more and more clues were given to me through my drawings, paintings, and collages. The forgotten parts of my childhood were being revealed to me piece by piece. Like putting together a puzzle with a thousand pieces, slowly, over time, a picture began to form. As I grew stronger, my subconscious mind revealed more and more. I started having flashbacks to the abuse – full body memories, the emotions I had felt as a child and wasn’t allowed to express, and flashes of images of where I was as a child and what was happening to me. As I accepted and expressed what was being revealed to me, I began to heal and grow stronger.

I feel there is a very, wise, intelligent, and loving power within me guiding me to heal. I am incredibly in awe of and forever grateful for this power, the wisdom of the human psyche, and the healing power of creativity!

– Sparrow

*Project Paperclip (or Operation Paperclip) was a secret U.S. government intelligence program that brought over 1600 German scientists to the United States after WW2 for government research and employment. Many of these German scientists were ardent Nazis and war criminals. I believe some of the scientists abusing me as a child were Project Paperclip scientists.

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What is MK Ultra? (Project Paperclip) – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rnwzIr8nY4E&t=6s

Codependents Anonymous – https://coda.org/

Adult Children of Alcoholics and Dysfunctional Families (ACA) – https://adultchildren.org/

9th Dimensional Pleiadian Collective channeled by Wendy Kennedy – https://higherfrequencies.net/

Michele Cassou – author of Life, Paint, and Passion: Reclaiming the Magic of Spontaneous Expression. – . https://www.michelecassou.com/